Filling the Void

by Heather on March 30, 2010

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Happy gorgeous afternoon to EVERYONE!  Man, it is such a gorgeous day out :)

Just to jump right in, lunch today was some homemade soup!  I shall call it Corn and Black Bean Chowder:

This soup seriously couldn’t be any easier!  Just dump all of the following ingredients into a big soup pot, cover with water (I didn’t measure in cups), and simmer for an hour on low:

  • 1/2 of a large onion, grated
  • 3 medium potatoes, grated
  • 2 small packages of frozen corn
  • 2 large handfuls of baby carrots, diced
  • 1 or 2 cans of black beans, drained and rinsed
  • 2 tsp garlic powder
  • 2 tsp chili powder
  • 1 tsp paprika
  • 1 tsp dried oregano
  • 1 tsp dried red pepper flakes
  • 1 tsp pepper
  • 1 tsp salt
  • 3-4 chicken or vegetable bouillon cubes

The starch in the potatos makes it very chowder-y, and the chili powder and red pepper flakes are a good spicy balance for the sweetness of the corn and carrots.  YUM!!!  I had it with another handful of carrots and a whole wheat sandwich thin with 1 slice of cheddar (split between the 2 sides).  Filled me and kept me full for a while!

I also got a surprise later in the day:  Nate scored some sweet Bolle sunglasses for me!

Please excuse the cheesy smile…I was pretty excited.  My head, as it turns out, is a very difficult one to fit with sunglasses, so when I find a good pair it makes me pretty happy :)  I wore them on my walk today, and they worked perfectly!  Upon my return I indulged in a little something different today…some Oikos with peanut butter (WHAAAAAAA?!) and some of my Nuts & Seeds Crunch from Wholesome Foods Bakery:

Y’all, that cup ‘o’ goodness didn’t even stand a chance!  I’ve never been cool enough to put peanut butter in my yogurt, but this is a must-try.  So good, and cool and creamy to help me cool down from my workout!

Today I had the chance to have a really great conversation with Jessica from How Sweet It Is (by the way, I love her!)  She gave me some really helpful advice on blogging and a short rundown of some of the stuff she learned at Fitbloggin’.  Eventually the conversation turned to numbers (as in number of hits on the blog per day/month/year) and I was overwhelmed at some of the stuff she shared that she heard at the conference.  We both share a dream of writing a book one day, and would love to have our blogs become a platform for “being discovered”; however, with the cold, hard, minimum number of views that were said to be “required” I just don’t know when, or if, that will ever happen for me.  I started to go into a slight state of depression when I realized that my dreams are (according to the editor that shared at Fitbloggin’) quite far away.  I even went so far as to think that there’s no way I’ll be able to gain that kind of readership until I lost weight…I mean, everyone loves a solid success story, right?

I headed out on my walk and after about 5 minutes came to a realization:  the void that I feel when I think about my future “career”?  That’s something that I’m trying to fill with the number of views I get on the blog.  That void is the same void that I have tried to fill with eating food, not eating food, working out, not working, trying to be a full-time people pleaser, and trying to not give a crap what people think of me.  And guess what?  That void hasn’t been filled, with the exception of one thing:  my relationship with Jesus Christ.  I know that not everyone who reads this will be a believer, and that’s fine:  it’s a choice that we all have to make.  I am a believer though, and I just came to the realization yet again that the only thing that has ever healed me, the only thing that has ever made me whole, is the unconditional love of God.  Therefore, I will continue to try to make that my main focus (as ADD as I can be with my life) and not be defined by one worldly thing or another.  I have faith that God will provide whatever it is that I have in store for me, and I will rest in the fact that I have always been loved, always been cherished, and have always been completely beautiful in the eyes of my Maker.

Thanks to all of you who read my blog!  My true hope and prayer is that I can help encourage and touch someone’s life in some way every day.

On that note, what do you want more than anything in the world, right now? I simply want to be happy with myself where I’m at right now.  I want to always be conscious of the fact that my life is not my own, and be used for whatever the Lord has in store for me.  Oh, and I want a cheeseburger.  Like real bad :)

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